I haven't written for a while. I was ambitious when i first subscribed to blogger. I had wanted to write at least twice or thrice a week. Now it's reduced to twice a month *sigh*
It isn't completely up to me, really. For me to be able to post in the blog, the computer has to be functioning properly. Then the internet connection has to be working well. Finally there has to be something to write..
When the computer and internet connection functioned well, my brain malfunctioned..or was at least sub-optimally functioning. When i had ideas crossing the synaptic junctions, i had no transfer medium!
First it was the mouse - it became paralysed and died. Then it's the celcom broadband sim card. For unknown reasons, it could not be detected by the phone. htc, nokia..semua tak detect. And now the CPU has broken down as well!! *double sigh*
Currently i'm able to write atas ehsan sahabatku nabilah yg selalu bagi pinjam laptop tatkala ada seminar atau case write-ups yang nak kena siapkan. Tenkiu nabilah! ^_^ Jasamu dikenang.
I first got to know nabilah when we were doing UNGS in the final short semester before embarking on our undergraduate study in Kuantan. We were roomies for about 3 months back in PJ. But at that time, i was pre-occupied with my inferiority complex, being surrounded by 'original' medical students with whom i could not be at par. For those who had not known, i registered to MCIIUM as a Bio Sc. student, jumped to Pharmacy as i entered year 2 and finally landed myself in Medicine.
2nd year in MCIIUM was the worst time i've ever experienced throughout my whole matriculation life. During the earlier part of the academic year, i was miserable. As time went by, i felt better but i was never truly happy. i'm a last-minute kind of person. i was, still am, but hopefully will no longer be.
When i joined d class with MEDCY students, they're all very dilligent, hardworking, selalu siap kerja awal, n selalu dapat jawab betul. On the other hand, i was not as dilligent, spent most of my time day-dreaming, siap kerja betul2 5 minit sebelum kena submit n banyak soalan yg xtau jawab!
Just imagine how low i felt at that time. I was having second thoughts. Am i really fit to join them? Do i belong? Have i made the right decision? Frankly speaking, I felt more intelligent when i was in Bio Sc.. Joining MEDCY reduced my self-confidence to a level lower than the unicellular amoeba.
I still remember crying hysterically on the morning of Physics paper, for fear that i might fail the exam. I talked to my mom, trying to convince her to allow me to intentionally skip the exam. I couldn't stand failing. I'd rather fail myself then let the lecturer fail me. Well eventually my immature plan was abandoned and i sat for the paper anyway. My grade wasn't excellent but at least i did not fail.
Allah taught me that it is my effort that counts, not the end result.
After being a medical student for 3 years and a bit, i feel more at home. i've developed meaningful friendships with people whose existence i've never realised until we're all dumped together in the same class.
Truly i feel blessed by Allah as He gives me the opportunity to develop myself amongst friends who are very nurturing. At times there are occasions in which my mistakes were being pointed out and I was reminded of things that i have done wrong. Incredibly, i feel happy with this sort of situation. No pretentions, no hard feelings. It's all pure sisterhood..or brotherhood. It's about being successful together.
From the depth of my heart, I feel glad because i know i'll be re-directed onto the right track should i swerve into the opposing lane.
This is how things should be. A friend ought to remind another friend of his mistakes in a very encouraging manner. One should also aknowledge positive traits that his friend has. This is what amar makruf nahi munkar should be like. We enjoin the good and forbid the evil with beautiful words and wisdom.
Remember that a rewarding experience related to an event will increase the probability of that event recurring?
Let's all be rewarding to ourselves and the people around us.
It isn't completely up to me, really. For me to be able to post in the blog, the computer has to be functioning properly. Then the internet connection has to be working well. Finally there has to be something to write..
When the computer and internet connection functioned well, my brain malfunctioned..or was at least sub-optimally functioning. When i had ideas crossing the synaptic junctions, i had no transfer medium!
First it was the mouse - it became paralysed and died. Then it's the celcom broadband sim card. For unknown reasons, it could not be detected by the phone. htc, nokia..semua tak detect. And now the CPU has broken down as well!! *double sigh*
Currently i'm able to write atas ehsan sahabatku nabilah yg selalu bagi pinjam laptop tatkala ada seminar atau case write-ups yang nak kena siapkan. Tenkiu nabilah! ^_^ Jasamu dikenang.
I first got to know nabilah when we were doing UNGS in the final short semester before embarking on our undergraduate study in Kuantan. We were roomies for about 3 months back in PJ. But at that time, i was pre-occupied with my inferiority complex, being surrounded by 'original' medical students with whom i could not be at par. For those who had not known, i registered to MCIIUM as a Bio Sc. student, jumped to Pharmacy as i entered year 2 and finally landed myself in Medicine.
2nd year in MCIIUM was the worst time i've ever experienced throughout my whole matriculation life. During the earlier part of the academic year, i was miserable. As time went by, i felt better but i was never truly happy. i'm a last-minute kind of person. i was, still am, but hopefully will no longer be.
When i joined d class with MEDCY students, they're all very dilligent, hardworking, selalu siap kerja awal, n selalu dapat jawab betul. On the other hand, i was not as dilligent, spent most of my time day-dreaming, siap kerja betul2 5 minit sebelum kena submit n banyak soalan yg xtau jawab!
Just imagine how low i felt at that time. I was having second thoughts. Am i really fit to join them? Do i belong? Have i made the right decision? Frankly speaking, I felt more intelligent when i was in Bio Sc.. Joining MEDCY reduced my self-confidence to a level lower than the unicellular amoeba.
I still remember crying hysterically on the morning of Physics paper, for fear that i might fail the exam. I talked to my mom, trying to convince her to allow me to intentionally skip the exam. I couldn't stand failing. I'd rather fail myself then let the lecturer fail me. Well eventually my immature plan was abandoned and i sat for the paper anyway. My grade wasn't excellent but at least i did not fail.
Allah taught me that it is my effort that counts, not the end result.
After being a medical student for 3 years and a bit, i feel more at home. i've developed meaningful friendships with people whose existence i've never realised until we're all dumped together in the same class.
Truly i feel blessed by Allah as He gives me the opportunity to develop myself amongst friends who are very nurturing. At times there are occasions in which my mistakes were being pointed out and I was reminded of things that i have done wrong. Incredibly, i feel happy with this sort of situation. No pretentions, no hard feelings. It's all pure sisterhood..or brotherhood. It's about being successful together.
From the depth of my heart, I feel glad because i know i'll be re-directed onto the right track should i swerve into the opposing lane.
This is how things should be. A friend ought to remind another friend of his mistakes in a very encouraging manner. One should also aknowledge positive traits that his friend has. This is what amar makruf nahi munkar should be like. We enjoin the good and forbid the evil with beautiful words and wisdom.
Remember that a rewarding experience related to an event will increase the probability of that event recurring?
Let's all be rewarding to ourselves and the people around us.
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